Four years ago God told me to walk away from our church home . . . correction, my church home. There were lots of reasons and He had been working on me for sometime to bring them to the forefront of my understanding to be dealt with. They were heart issues that had taken root many years ago that I had never dealt with. I was walking with God and we had come to a place where I couldn't go forward without shedding some old cloaks. I can finally say I threw off my cloak and ran to Him for healing. He opened my eyes and profoundly changed my life. My worldview, sense of worth, identify, value . . . everything changed. I was sitting in a classroom at my church and He spoke to me in a loud voice like something from a horror movie, "Get Out!" - I stood up, packed up my stuff and left - my heart pounding. As soon as I stepped out the door, the shingles fell from my eyes and I was filled with a quiet peace. That peace has been unshakeable. My sudden departure brought out the worst in others which I endured with a peace and a quietness in my soul that was uncharacteristic of the "old" me. I watched as good Christians behaved miserably.
The moral of this story is that Christians are human, terribly flawed and while we all crave transformation, it is uncomfortable, takes great courage to accept and is the most satisfying peace in the world.
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