When God
wants us to do something, there is no denying Him. For the past several years, he has been
showing me something; stirring me to action, relentless in His pursuit. I can only compare it to being romanced,
swept off my feet. During this time, he
has wooed me with the beauty of His creation, whispering in my ear as I gazed
at a glorious sunset, “This is for you.”
He has touched me through His majesty of a sunrise mountain scene or the
elegance of a single flower. He has read
His poetry to me, telling me of His love for me and for His desire to be my
bridegroom. He has held me close when I
ached to be touched. His passion has
moved me to tears; He has demonstrated His love for me through my husband, his
adoration through my children, His unconditional acceptance through my family
and His companionship through my friends.
When my desire for Him began to run cold He flamed the fires of my
passions. He sent people to me that rekindled
my longing and taught me to desire Him again.
I
haven’t always recognized Him though; often times I thought the earthly things
He used were enough for me. But no
matter how beautiful, how touching or how dear, they will never fully satisfy. Just recently, as I’ve begun to ponder His
thoughts toward me, do I get a glimpse of His intimate desire for me
personally. As if I’m the only woman for
Him. As if I alone can satisfy His
longing. Only God can make me feel that
way – what man on earth stands a chance to capture a woman’s heart like Him? What earthly man could stir a woman’s desire
and satisfy her longings so completely.
Who but
God created beauty?
Who but
God knows how to love?
Who but
God refused to live without me?
Who but
God longs for me day and night?
Who but
God can touch my soul, fill my lungs with breath and cause my heart to beat?
Who but
God can fulfill my every longing, satisfy my every desire and understand my
passion?
No one
but Him
What is
it my God wants me to do? I don’t know
exactly . . . yet. I do know that
falling in love with Him these past few years was essential to whatever that
calling will be. I know through
experience that when I love someone there is nothing I wouldn’t do for them; no
sacrifice I wouldn’t make, nothing I wouldn’t deny myself for their happiness. I’m excited to be at this place with Him and so
it is with great anticipation that I wait upon His next word; His next
revelation . . . His next touch.
